Fear of Vulnerability

I want you to see me how I wish I was, not how I really am. Because who I am is scared and weak and not in control. He stumbles on his words and is wrong a lot and makes mistakes all the time. And revealing that makes me feel vulnerable. But if you don't get to know that person, your relationship isn't with me at all.


Humans are like snails. We're soft and weak and vulnerable (and even a little gross?) on the inside. When something scares us, we hide behind our shell, the image people have of us. And we feel safer that way because the shell is stronger and polished. It's prettier to look at. We may even have several different shells for different occasions. But that's not us. It's not real. And those relationships leave us unfulfilled because they aren't real.

We all want to believe the image we project. Maybe if we play pretend and believe it hard enough, we'll magically change into what we want to be. Or perhaps more accurately, if we can get others to believe it. Perhaps that's why we put so much value on the perspective of others. We're seeking that validation. But on a more devious level, we want to know if the illusion is working.

But when we're alone, the shell doesn't exist. We can try to put it up, but it needs an audience to materialize. We can't fool ourselves. That's why so many people are afraid to be alone. They feel naked and exposed because they can't fool themselves anymore.

Until we learn to overcome this fear of being vulnerable, we can never have a real relationship with anyone. It's scary, but it's worth the risk. Because the alternative is feeling alone for the rest of your life.

p.s. Don't get me wrong. Shells/images of us can be very useful in social settings and professional relationships. But for intimate relationships like friendships and romantic connections, this approach will only hamstring you.